Past
I've been trying hard to think of what can I post here in my blog. I know that there are lot of things that can write to and there are thousands of them in different websites. I do not read much of the blogs of others and that's one thing that I should try to do regularly. Not to get ideas on the topic that I should write but for me to be creative somehow in writing. I am hesitant to write personal information here because I am very private person and often isolated myself to others. Only few people really knew who I am and one thing that I'm afraid of is rejection. For me to overcome this, I made a lot of adjustments in my life. It is never too late for me to break free of the past and so i need to look back on the past and wonder how my experiences scarred me.
Since I was a young boy, I am very insecure with myself. I notice my classmates playing basketball and I never even knew how to hold a ball or shoot it. I always end up playing on the slides at playgrounds, 'patintero' where you have to cross a line without touching or catching your body, catch ball, 'agawan base', a game with two teams with a base and the goal is to tag the other team's base without getting tagged and other traditional Filipino games that I really enjoyed. I know that I enjoyed my childhood years but I still regret that I grew up without a particular sports. I remember when my mother enrolled me for Karate class in SM North when I was 10 years old wearing white belt as starter. The students change the color of their belts as they progress in learning martial arts and I was so frustrated when I did not continue with it and I could not remember why.
Another thing that made my self-esteem crumb down was when my pimples started to come out on my face, back and chest. It was not easy when people teased and persecuted me that time and so at early age I patiently go to facial centers where they need to prick all my pimples which is so painful but I have to endure it for my classmates not to tease me again.
I have a lot of stories of rejection, bullying, insecurities and painful experiences in my life. I know that I have to let go of the past and focus on the present that's why I always took care of my self now. I go to gym to be fit, I took care of my skin and practice good diet. Looking back, I made a conclusion that the reason that i'd been made a victim as I was because I let it happen.This story is never new for some but life stories like this can be sad and frustrating if people never know how to cope with these problems. I always turn to God and pray that he will give me power to let go of the past and enjoy my present, to learn and understand that my past experiences are opportunities in disguise, to create value out of events that we judged as harmful and for me to embrace my life even more. Instead of thinking of them, I'd rather improve myself by learning and discovering things around me and appreciate God's blessings each day. How can we break free from the past? By using it as a fuel for growth in the present and for the future.
Since I was a young boy, I am very insecure with myself. I notice my classmates playing basketball and I never even knew how to hold a ball or shoot it. I always end up playing on the slides at playgrounds, 'patintero' where you have to cross a line without touching or catching your body, catch ball, 'agawan base', a game with two teams with a base and the goal is to tag the other team's base without getting tagged and other traditional Filipino games that I really enjoyed. I know that I enjoyed my childhood years but I still regret that I grew up without a particular sports. I remember when my mother enrolled me for Karate class in SM North when I was 10 years old wearing white belt as starter. The students change the color of their belts as they progress in learning martial arts and I was so frustrated when I did not continue with it and I could not remember why.
Another thing that made my self-esteem crumb down was when my pimples started to come out on my face, back and chest. It was not easy when people teased and persecuted me that time and so at early age I patiently go to facial centers where they need to prick all my pimples which is so painful but I have to endure it for my classmates not to tease me again.
I have a lot of stories of rejection, bullying, insecurities and painful experiences in my life. I know that I have to let go of the past and focus on the present that's why I always took care of my self now. I go to gym to be fit, I took care of my skin and practice good diet. Looking back, I made a conclusion that the reason that i'd been made a victim as I was because I let it happen.This story is never new for some but life stories like this can be sad and frustrating if people never know how to cope with these problems. I always turn to God and pray that he will give me power to let go of the past and enjoy my present, to learn and understand that my past experiences are opportunities in disguise, to create value out of events that we judged as harmful and for me to embrace my life even more. Instead of thinking of them, I'd rather improve myself by learning and discovering things around me and appreciate God's blessings each day. How can we break free from the past? By using it as a fuel for growth in the present and for the future.
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