Welcome to My Operating Room

The title came from a very good friend. A friend that I texted before I decided to write. Obviously, I am alone this day at our house. Today is Eid ul fitr, a holiday marking the end of Ramadan for our Muslim brothers and sisters. Since, I'm alone and so lazy early this day to do anything but to sleep and lie in my bed. I finally decided to go to the gym in the afternoon after reading motivations in twitter on how to be physically and mentally fit and after seeing muscular guys in Instagram which I really want to have.  I am so proud of myself because despite of what happened to my life in the past few months, which I wont tell in details anymore, I have remained strong and determined to be a better person. Earlier, tears pour down again after watching the video of Gerald and I which I did months ago. Then suddenly, a simple but flattering comment pops up in my notification on my facebook account and lit my face up. It came from my student and a woman that I really respect. ...

One of the song of Celine Dion says that 'Goodbye' is the saddest word that we can see in the dictionary. I totally agree with it. This year has been so many goodbyes in my life. I said goodbye to my boyfriend of 6 years here on earth and I really cannot explain how sad I am right now. I said goodbye to 'Manang', our maid who served our family for many years because she had to be with her family in the province but I was so sad about it. I said goodbyes every time my students are graduating and trust me this is something that I really hate saying after 6 months of training and molding them to be World-Class Caregivers. Now, I have to say goodbye to my workmate, colleague, friend, and 'kakulitan' in our training center. This is so hard for me not because she's a great teacher but I really learned a lot from her. She has a charismatic teaching styles, strong willpower and very productive in the work. She also thought me the value of time especially when she...